shattered Dreams

Title was pretty heavy to think and deal with. I was fluvial like a river and kept on the pace of getting the pace of my dream. I thought my pace was if not more than my dream's, atleast it was matching it; but you know what whenever i thought i prepared well to face the competition, I lost it. So that itself shows how prepared i was.

But this intelligent and optimistic thought was the last thing which came in my mind. the first thing was the SHATTERED DREAM. I thought this may not be my destiny but than where is that dam thing which people call destiny. I am far away from everyone i know, I prepared and put lots of effort to it, but what i got at the end was just a dream which still was far away from coming true.

Changing the direction and that too in the influence of others was my previous faults which i tried to remove this time but you know that good things easy to forget but bad once always comes back with much more force and make you more weaker to handle it. Atleast i felt that way, many people may think differently. I may have a very common thought, but you know specialty of common thought is, it comes very uncommonly.

I am taking this shattered dream with me to put it together and make a new picture. Lets see if it comes the same it was earlier.

Lets Hope for the best, and i am prepared to face it. One more time i think i am ready enough.

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Creating Zeal)

ohhhh...don't know why this subject line being chosen, but let me try to think over it.

Zeal sounds like don't want to do certain things but still has to do, want to leave but not able to do so. thus just for living we do all these certain or uncertain things which you are not at all interested in doing.

Me too has the same situation, i lost zeal in writing someones written code, searching here and there finding right thing and putting together saying i did it. but is it really me who has done this...no i just collected pieces and put them together, just like different brands do. they also collect the pieces and make their brand and still earn more than who actually created it.

thats why thinking of sick in doing this same thing....lets find out Neverland..a place of dreams...everything is so good there that no one want to get out..thrill..fun..enjoy...but no time for these fairy tales.

be in real world..and do these things which has no interest... :)

Newer or older BJP

Hey this is totally different topic, i picked it because i just feel like doing it.

you know I had a great admire about the BJP, this admire made me to follow whatever is going around it.

this is not only my view but also loosing interest in this whole game, once upon i was just mad about politics but it may be my lack of some qualities which made me to think like this today but some where there is sense of understanding now. i think i was not getting idea in the older days which was not the only about BJP, it was about national politics. Idea got fade up with huge mess up in BJP and really made me reluctant about whole power game in BJP.

lets see the new turn around but what i think is this not a turn around just a adjustment made today with new team of mixed people, most of them not even reachable to common people.

lets see how far this will go and it will be really great chance of everyone who has given the responsibility.

best of luck all of you.

Managing Tolerance

Hey I am writing this after realizing that why the tolerance is very much important. Every time we try to begin with some new endorsement or initiate a new beginning in life. Whenever we go to the direction of these new stories of life we always find some new followers, colleagues or friends, and everyone has their own tolerance levels, interests or even likes or dislikes.

Now question is why everyones tolerance is so important, why even need to tolerate anyone to anyone else. I thought a lot a and what i got is everyones tolerance level is different and this is hit every time you touch the personal ego of some one. each person has this personal ego, and no one should hit this at any cost because what i learnt is if can not tolerate somebody hitting my ego nobody else would tolerate. Now next question is to why need to tolerate anyone.

Lets find the answer, i am going a bit straight, let me go i in a mood to describe it as quickly as possible. What i learnt is you have people around you with different interests, and they very important to teach a new lession every time you turned with new chapter. Now you need these people to become complete with difference in opinion and difference in habits you learn what you missed in other time and get the new whole idea of life.

But you should always remember why to to tolerate its not only learning new what if i don't want to learn anything, i will not be in touch with this society filled with different people. Answer is No yup thats what i could find you can not live life without people around you. Because you can't enjoy your happiness or share exempt sorrows alone, thus all these people are very much important.

So the finally we come to conclusion never touch Personal ego of anyone even of your closest one. and enjoy every moment by knowing the tolerance limit of the people around you.

Keep Smiling.....

How do we live Life

Interesting topic,

I tried a lot to live my life but every time when i think about it; i find myself being living somebodies else life. You think of yourself and i hope you would also find the same. Its not about right or wrong but its about what we get and what we want. I learnt long back that whatever we want at the end of the day we get that only but Life has changed in the way and all those learnings went in vain, but truth came out and truth is you will get what you deserve.

So the story is all about what you deserve not what you want. My things started

turning very drastically as I made progress in life, or you can say this transformation started as i progressed in the life. Life turned yup turned is not the right word actually i should say turmoil came in life every time life wanted to teach me any new thing. hey its a lot of philosophy back to the topic, so truth is to we always, no no, everyone around you including you wanted you to live your own life as somebody else is living. thats true let me give an example, if your not studious you want to be like studious boys and if you are studious but not enjoying life like mediocre does.

So the important thing is we are not satisfied with the way we are, we want everything but i know everyone do not deserve everything; and this is the whole deep truth and you will get what you deserve at the end of the day.

My Life

i had tremendous passion towards knowing myself. Who am i and why am i. answer never turn up.

i was castigating myself, trying hard to know the answer and i would say answer came in bits and pieces.

i started listening that i came to change but change what don't know yet. but i know i m going in right direction and would say obnubilate will not be longer. What i learnt is, good that i m asking this question to myself and because of that only i m enjoying my life more. every moment and every person you met in your life is important to torn your life towards the goal. this gaol is still in darkness, don't know when i will get the answer from myself about myself.

for now i m taking a break, but what do you this, was it a good start.

Change.........always good.